I’m scared.

Today I’m having a stress test done. What a stress test does it monitors your heart while you’re laying down, sitting, standing, and walking to see if your heart is pumping enough blood to the rest of your body. 

I have been having chest pains since February of 2010, but I’ve ignored them because as someone who is only 20 I’m afraid that something my seriously be wrong with me. And in that case I almost rather not know. But there are multiple reasons why someone has pain in their chest.

Right now doctors are trying to rule out my heart as a cause of pain. Which is reassuring because they realize that it’s the last thing they want it to be, my heart to be the cause of pain. It could be anywhere between my brain or heart to simply anxiety or stress. What ever the problem is it’s very uncomfortable and it scares me. I fear an early death and an incomplete life.